Looking for my other half

[gilbertpaul]

I'm not sure how to begin this but as I look for a real girlfriend I imagine her being just so understanding and caring. It's not easy when your alone always yearning for love and someone to hold hands with who will be there to talk to about everything. I feel so empty inside that I'm as a lone lost man in the wilderness looking for that water to give me life. And like life sustaining water I look for a woman that can give me life because I feel so dead sometimes that inside I'm not even alive it seems. I feel so empty that when I hear a really good singer sing about love or a failed relationship I am in tune with the singer and I really feel what they are saying. An old song by Karen White, I'm not your Superwoman from the 1980's really hits me home. I can really feel her soul talk to my soul and I really feel her hurt as she sings her little heart out. Many times I can feel the pain and/or joy of a good song and I identify with their love life as I try to live without a love in mine. As a singer I find myself singing alot of different songs but I cannot sing about love when I have none. However one song I can sing by Mark Anthony is, " Contra la corriente " Where Mark sings that his search for love is like if he was going against the current. And so he says, " Yo trato ,trato, trato pero no lo consigo... Es como nadando contre la corriente. He says he tries, tries, tries but it's like swimming against the current. I feel just like that thus that song I can sing with feeling because it just seems to be a very terrible fight going against the current. And that something I wanted to write about for along time. I'm not unhappy or sad I'm just empty inside fighting to win my chance at love. Until that day I'll continue to do things like sing, write, tell jokes the way I do. But deep down inside I remember I come home to an empty house and my heart cries for real love that might grow like a beautiful flower. When I find that special someone then I will be a whole man.

gilbertpaul martin